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Exercise: Positive vs Negative Energy Balance? A Personal Challenge.
Related: double century, Eastern Sierra, exercise, hard core, Mt Conness area, peak bagging, SARS-CoV-2 aka COVID-19 aka Coronavirus, ultra endurance exercise
re: exercise
Maybe you know someone who might fit what I describe here, suffering post-COVID for years? It’s not about me, but about the experience and challenges. Tell them to take heart, and persist!
re: Dealing with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis / Chronic Fatigue Syndrome?
Prelude
I’m on my 4th post-COVID year, prior to which I had done 55 double century rides, and competitively too, winning a smaller event here and there, and by soloing (no drafting). I state that to illuminate the extreme contrast between March 2020 and April 2024. I still don’t know if I’ll ever again be able to ride a century, let alone a double century.
Three “lost”years of my life*, and it still a struggle to get back some degree of fitness. At first it was a massive Epstein Barr onslaught (antibody tests escalating over 12 months) plus who knows what, then Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis (miraculously subsided). Things seem to be settling down, but I am 30 pounds over my spring training weight and that isn’t helping.
Here 4 years later I have greatly improved, but am a fractional self of pre-COVID. But in the first major positive sign, last autumn I was able to climb Mt Conness. A short and relatively easy climb (10 miles round trip, 2500 vertical), for ~3 years I could not have contemplated even the first mile of the flat approach, let alone the steep stuff. A huge win after years. That’s not saying I could do it at will; it was the culmination of weeks of things going well.
* It’s not really fitness, as I can tell by occassional breakout days showing that my cardiovascular system is fully intact. We’re talking 25% to 40% swings in wattage. Some energy-sapping malaise sucks it out of me within a few days or at most weeks.
Positive vs Negative Energy Balance from Exercise
re: Live Longer and Better: Why Exercise Intensity Matters for Longevity but if you cannot get to the zero/neutral point, it’s damned hard to do high-intensity anything.
My challenge here in April 2024 is to get back into positive energy balance from exercise.
Positive Energy Balance — a virtuous cycle
For most of my life, exercise tired me while doing it (eventually), but the feel-good aspects both during and after exercise feeling and the resulting boost in overall energy and feelings of well being made it a positive energy balance. More please!
With healthy physiology, exercise is a virtuous loop whereby more exercise (in proper measure) means even more energy, up to and including double century rides for me (loved 'em!). I was a powerhouse for much of my life. I did not tire easily or until after a very very long time. If you’ve ever felt that, then you’ll know just how awesome that feels.
Then events take that away.
Negative Energy Balance —exercise consistently nets-out at less
What if the 'reward' for exercise is punishment by days or even weeks of low energy malaise? No matter what you do, exercise means a net drain of physical and mental energy.
And what if you can no longer gauge how much is enough or too much? What if feeling really good on that rare day is a good sign but also blindness to what’s coming? A feedback loop that doesn’t work, misleads, betrays? That’s where it still sits for me. It is the opposite of my carefully honed sense of self for the rest of my life—and very hard to adapt to.
For most of the past 3 years most of the time, exercise took sheer force of will, like using The Force to make the body go. It felt as if my brain were under extreme duress, a draining almost painful concentration. And lacking any endorphin reward as with normal physiology, more like anti-endorphin. The most unpleasant anything I’ve ever done including the most strenuous double century in its last miles in extreme heat. Like pain but much worse. Makes you never want to try again. Having done 55 double centuries in all manner of conditions, I am not exactly afraid of fatigue or discomfort. But this process was godawful.
Rewards slow to come and reversals frequent. Negative energy balance with negative feedback is a very deep hole to climb out of.
Oscillating about the zero point
With 3+ years of net drain energy from exercise, I now feel that I’m oscillating about the zero point—approaching a neutral status where I am at least not losing net energy. But it’s also not yet a gain, not a positive energy balance.
A 45 minute easy ride (nothing approaching a hard effort!) might cost me 4 hours of my day from energy drain. Or another day, a 90 minute ride (again, easy) might be fine until an hour after then... wham. Or it might be fine. The feedback loop is unpredictable.
Or that infrequent and wondrous joyful day: a really good ride “like the old days” ride in which I feel stronger and stronger to the end. Not at full fitness, but at full operational status, the lungs and legs and heart all working beautifully like they ought. And yet within an hour the body collapses and an hourlong nap is needed just to feel functional. Then 10-12 hours of sleep. Maybe good sleep and maybe disrupted (another violation of the normal physiology of exercise supposedly helping sleep, more like requiring but not necessarily helping). And maybe the body physiology won’t work that well again for a month or three.
Pyschologists say that the unpredictablity of rewards is more reinforcing than predictable rewards, but I say that’s bullshit in this case.
What’s the alternative, giving up? Can’t do; the quality and duration of my life depends on it.
Exit the Sedentary?
I wonder if it feels this way for someone who has been sedentary for life? I’d guess that it might be like that for a month or so, then the reward system kicks in? No idea.
Last fall, for the first time in 3 years, I was able to climb a peak. Prior years just doing the flat approach before reaching the ascent part would have been my limit. Not exactly Mt Whitney in difficulty, Mt Conness is nonetheless a signficant effort.
Fujifilm GFX100 II + Fujifilm GF 35-70mm f/4.5-5.6 WR @ 28.8mm equiv (35mm)
ENV: Mt Conness summit ridge, altitude 12530 ft / 3819 m, 38°F / 3°C
RAW: Adobe Color, LACA corrected, WB 5050°K tint 22, push 0.38 stops, +20 Whites, +20 Dehaze, +10 Clarity, USM {8,50,0}, diffraction mitigating sharpening
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